Dear: ____________

So... I have lots of feelings about a lot of people.. I wonder if you can figure out who you are?

Dear 1: Grow up. You think you are all that, but you aren't. A lot of people have a problem with you. You can be one of the most fun people in the world.. when you want to be. A lot of people really care about you, but you either (a.) Don't notice (b.) Don't care or (c.) don't know how to express your thoughts/feelings to others. Everyone thinks you are a lot of fun, we just wish you were nice to us half the time.

Dear 2: Don't let other people influence you the way you have been letting them. You are a really good kid, and you are so much fun to be around. You are way better than your friends; Find some new ones!!! Don't let them change you.

Dear 3: You are awesome. I haven't seen you much this year because of being sick, but I seriously miss you. You are one of the most amazing friends ever, and I absolutely love the "get well cards" made out of index cards that I have received from you and my sister. You are one of the best artists EVER and I LOVE seeing all of the pictures of your artwork. We will have to catch up for all of our missed amazing times this year over the summer. Maybe we can wash my car and tie dye again? You are the best.

Dear 4: You are so strong. I don't know anyone that has been through as much as you have, and yet you have stayed yourself throughout everything that has happened in the past two years or so. You never gave up on yourself, and you kept going when things got very, very tough. So many people look up to you and wish they had your kind of strength.

Dear 5: I miss you being the way you used to be. We all had so much fun together when we were little, and then you had to drastically change. We talk about wanting to change you back all the time, but we know that it won't happen. We used to play hide and seek when we were little, and then get into trouble for not coming out when you had to leave. I miss you being so much fun and not having a care in the world. We all miss you.

Dear 6: Come home... please!!!!! Everyone misses you, and you keep visiting only to leave again!! We want you here to stay!! Too bad that won't happen.

Dear 7: You, my friend are AMAZING. I have probably been through the most with you, and you understand me like no one else can.. because they have never experienced the things we go through on a daily basis. We always have SO much fun together. We together are the most quoteable people in the universe. I know that one day we will both be better. You will be the famous song-writer/singer, and I will be the trampoline model. You, are my Fabby. :) I love you!!!!

Dear 8: I met you freshman year... in gym class... where you made fun of my running. :( hahahaha You are my bus buddy/carrowinds buddy/ boot buddy. We always have so much fun!!! You made fun of me last year when I hurt my thumb and was in a cast. And karma struck.. and you got a boot. :) and I laughed SO hard. and then... karma struck again.. and I got a boot!! Except... my boot is sexier than yours... mine has a little blue button that is fun to push :)


Well.... That is it for now. This kid has make-up work to do.

Until Next Time,

Bk

Spring Cleaning, Tie Dye, Prom, and Gallbladder problems?

So what could I possibly have to say about Spring Cleaning, Tie Dye, Prom, and Gallbladder problems?

A LOT.

The past couple of weeks have been very exciting, for sure. I guess I will go all the way back to like three weeks ago. It started off very exciting, because I was doing exceptionally well. We have started cleaning out the attic and all of our other storage areas in the house and moving them to a storage unit a few minutes away from our house. That weekend, our amazing cousin came over and helped us clean things out of our house and move it to our storage unit. After we worked for several hours, mom gave us each money to do whatever we wanted with. We decided to get some things to tie dye shirts with. My sister had the coolest result of a home tie dye project I have ever seen:

Isn't that awesome? I am going to have to let her do mine next time. Mine turned out the best I have ever seen, until I saw hers. Maybe I am just pathetic at tie dying, but her shirt kicks butt.

This post is kind of going nowhere... so I will skip details and get to the good stuff..

(I ended up getting a nasty sinus infection that I could not get rid of, and I can't have antibiotics so I had to get antibiotic injections in my legs... the most painful injections you can get because they go straight into the muscle. They kill. It feels like fire traveling through your legs and makes you want to die. But... enough of that story... I missed a full week of school but then got better.)

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That was last week.

Saturday was Prom. I had a blast. It would have been terrible had I missed it. Oh wait... I almost did. Right after I got my dress on and my make-up done, I stood up having bad pains in my right side. It went from seemingly minor to very severe very quick and I almost had to go to the emergency room. It took everything in me to keep it together. Long story short... I sucked it up and went to prom anyway, despite the pain, and it eventually got better. Turns out it was probably my gallbladder. I have been having issues that relate to gallbladder malfunction and I am going to the doctor tomorrow. It looks like surgery is in my near future. Awesome.

Wish Me luck.

BKay

Oh... Prom Pictures.....

Like the dress? Like the hair? Lemme Know.

(I'm done this time.)

- BKay

Good Days > Bad Days

I am finally starting to have more good days than bad. Finally. I feel like I have lived for the time like this.. for the past five years or so. Living trapped inside a sick body is indescribable...miserable... lonely...unhappy. I am so happy to be doing better... and to not be so reliable on that awful medicine and its side effects. It is kind of ironic that I am writing this post about having more good days.. when I am having a bad day (sick day) today. But... I realize that I will continue to get better and better.. and that thought excites me very much.

The medicine that I had been relying on for quite some time changed me so much. I was different. I wasn't the same outgoing, loud, talkative, energetic, ADHD, OCD, friendly person. Instead, I was a silent, exhausted, and unhappy zombie. I now know what it is like to be me again!!! I am so happy, and I have energy again. Before I started to see improvements, I didn't know what I would do with my life. I couldn't see my future. But now, I can. I will be helping others who know what it means to be very sick. I will be the one to tell them that everything will be okay, when they don't see themselves getting better. I will be the one to change someone's life.

While I was typing this blog entry, I was listening to my music on iTunes, when a song came on that I can very easily relate to, along with so many other people. "The Climb" by Miley Cyrus is amazing. Now, I am not a fan of Miley Cyrus at all, but I love the song... Especially this part:

" There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Aint about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb"

I think a lot of people can relate to this song. Everyone has struggles. Everyone wishes that they didn't have major struggles or difficulties in their lives, and that they could get rid of them. Everyone hates to face the biggest challenges of their lives. It isn't easy to face a challenge. It is even more difficult when things don't go your way, because you keep wondering what the outcome would be if things HAD gone your way. But, it is the outcome of the simple daily challenges and the most difficult challenges that make us who we are.

 The more I think about it, I wonder what I would be like had I not gotten sick. Would I be the same? Probably not. I believe that everything happens for a reason. We don't always understand why the things that happen to us happen. Maybe it is simply just to learn how to face reality, and to keep going on with life. But, since I have been sick, I have learned a lot. Being so sick all the time gave me a lot of time to think. I never understood why it had to be me that got sick. Was it to make me stronger? Was it supposed to teach me a lesson? Or.. Did God just know that I could handle it? Whatever the reasons, I learned a lot about myself. I am stronger than I was before. I now know that I can handle much more than I ever thought was  possible before. I learned so much more... and I continue to keep learning.

- Brynn Kaitlin